I went to a new shrink today who is going to be working with me on the trauma I suffered due to my divorce. We came up with different areas of trauma that I need to clear: the guilt about my daughter; the desertion by my ex; jealousy/envy of the affair partner he married; self-blame, fear of my daughter’s crazy behavior. There were a few more that I can’t remember at the moment. I never thought of these feelings as trauma exactly but I guess they are. She asked if they felt like lead weights I was carrying around on my back. That description hits the nail on the head. She is going to use some interesting methods with me such as EMDR, pressure on points on the body; having me hold my arm out and pushing down to determine how true certain statements are, and some others.
I’m working first on forgiving myself, which I really never did. I’m really looking forward to doing this. I desperately hope it works. I am sooooo tired of being depressed and miserable. I need to get free of all this crap. I’ve done talk therapy up the wazoo and need something different.
I’ll keep you posted.
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